i hate you

it is hard to believe
but its true
now i find it
i hate you

it took a lot of time
to decide
but after the answer
i think its rite

i tried to love you
tried even to fake
but no
it is a dream
& i jus awake

there is nothing in there
for us to stay
now its become a trap
better to leave it & wrap

you & i are now not us
the relation has jus lost its trust
we have no option but to leave
& this is what you should believe

may be i m wrong
may be i am commiting a mistake
even then i think it's needed
cause doing a mistake is better
then living with one

alone

And again
i was left alone

it is not the first time & not even the last
i m a fool not learning from my past
there is no place for me anywhere
i have no option but to disappear

why i still have a drop of hope
that i may cope
that i may not choke

why not i realize
better be wise
that it may never happen
a state that i never attain

but now i m comfartable with it
i dont want to find an exit
may be lonliness himself felt alone
& choses me as his only known

i enjoy the feeling
itself reaviling
that i have a friend
inside me
that doesnt follow the trend
& doesnt leave me bend
i have him even when i don't have anyone
& thats what i wanted in return

subtitle

sumtimes when i dont know
what is going on
sumtimes when i dont know
am i me
or sumone else clone
i jus wish life had subtitle
if i understand it
it would be more vital

sumtimes when life leaves no escape
all i can do is to luk & wait
sumtimes when i loose what i deserve
i try my best
still i get the reverse
i jus wish life had subtitle
if i understand it
it would be more vital

sumtimes when i feel sad
mising sumthing
dont know reason why
sumtimes when unwilingly
i have to say goodbye
i jus wish life had subtitle
if i understand it
it would be more vital

shadow of stranger

i don't know who she was
i don't know about future and past
but i do know
i was changed
when i saw a stranger
it just began

it was just like a magic
no regret,no fear,not tragic
jus like feather on wind
she came & disappear in a blink
i don't know where she gone
but i do know
i was changed
when i saw a stranger
it just began

now when she is gone
i m feeling quite alone
only shadow of her remain
she live only in my remeberence
i don't know when it last
but i do know
i was changed
when i saw a stranger
it just began

a pray to god

last night wandering in my thought
feeling awkward
loosing a battle hard fought
i jus think of a solution
why not pray to god
& let all my problem destroyed
so i started to pray
but soon realize that it may never end
cause desire r jus like a rubber band
if u fullfill them..they jus extand

i think
what will i get
when my desire r fed

i will be happy

i think again
r people, not capable of dreaming ,not happy

yes they r

then where s the problem

its when u c a dream
& dont complete it

thoughts clash
&
i got my answer
& i jus pray
either fullfill my desire
or cease my fire
so that i can't c a dream
both case i will be happy indeed
& thats what,in life, one need


note- - - - i think answer to my pray is still awaited

u know....

u know........

every time i met u ,every time i talk to u

u luk always new

the way u smile,the way u act

i never no how u gonna react

sumtimes i wonder

did i kno u or its jus an illusion

jus a state of confusion

but i dont want to find an exit

cause not every problm need a solution

u know........

u r jus like my dreams

undefined yet full of mean

unaprochable yet a sheen

unexpected but very likely

unreal but better then reality

sumtimes i wonder

r u my dream or its jus a convolution

jus like a interpretation

but i dont want to find an exit

cause not every problm need a solution