i hate love

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love”.

- Neil Gaiman

don't incite it

don't incite it 

i fear 

i may not be able to continue

the road is too long

and i don't know

when it end

it is not even started yet

and i am already tired

my mind is messing up things 

and i am outplayed by it

i am not even sure

is there really a problem or its me

but even if it is a dream

please i beg

give me its morning

if it continue

i am sure

it lead to a mess of me

and then i never recover

i want to get out of it

and be the one

i was before

but whenever  i try 

it jus slip out of my hand

what should i do 

i don't know 

but i know a thing clearly

don't incite it

cheers

cheer

if you have tear

cause you jus out of a stupid thing

that lift you up without wing

and then leave you 

to free fall and sting

cheer 

if your dream is broken

cause this is time to wake up

and leave the damn dream 

that show you the unreal

and then leave you to feel empty

cheer 

if you had nowhere to go

cause now you know 

that it never lead to end

like moving in circle

same way you always tend

cheer 

even if you are down

cause now you can relax

and avoid the frown

you can make a fresh path

and can come in light

cutting your way to the dark

THEN LAUGH-----BY Bertha Adam Bockers

Build for yourself a strong box,

 

Fashion each part with care;

 

When it is strong as your hands can make it,

 

Put all your troubles there;

 

 

 

 

Hide there all thoughts of your failures,

 

And each bitter cup that you quaff;

 

Lock all your heartaches within it,

 

Then sit on the lid and laugh.

 

 

 

 

Tell no on else its contents,

 

Never its secret share;

 

When you’ve dropped in your care and worry,

 

Keep them forever there;

 

 

 

 

Hide them from sight so completely,

 

That the world will never dream half;

 

Fasten the strong box securely,

 

Then sit on the lid and laugh.

never ending dream

i don't how to define

improve or refine

i even don't know 

is it real 

or a pie in the sky

but i do know a thing

even if it is dream 

i pray 

it continue and never end

i want to dip in it 

deep down

n i wish 

its all over me till it can tend

heck no!!!

sometime when you listen to someone ...you feel a shiver down your spine....you feel that this is what i have inside...but i need someone to tell me about it....i actually feel it today.. it happens rarely that i understand completely what the other person want to say....and today i have a similar rare "sometime".....i don't think i heard something new .......something that i say i don't know till today.....i know all that...but i just don't feel that.......and after hearing that...now i feel stupid and a little bit dumb...i know all these..i know myself...and i know others....do i really need others opinion to be sure that i am good.. heck no!!!

i don't know why i am so much overwhelmed.....but i am ....now  one more great line that i heard  today is ....either you laugh at your problems or the others will...so i am not going to give a single chance to others so that they laugh at me...really tough task ...u know...first create the problem...then try to find a solution....and then when you are failed to find one..laugh at them...but that's i am going to do now......is it really so tough??....heck no!!!

i lost enough in last 2 3 days...& the Witty part.....the most valuable thing that i think i lost is the one that i never possessed but i am feeling that i lost it..i tried....okk..i tried a little less...but i tried....and i can't get it...my hope are shattered...i am shattered...i think thats enough regret ...but then i am feeling free...a little bit down..but free....i am feeling like i am out of an stupid thing that is actually never meant for me...thank god...i am out of it...just continue your shower of "blessings in disguise" on me....till then do i care????..heck no!!!!

pull the curtain

confused yet so certain

cann't justify

cann't even deny

help me 

clerify my vision

please pull the curtain

at a time i want to be alone

and with everyone 

why cann't this be possible

give me a reason

without any occasion 

i become so happy 

and dip in celebration

the very next moment 

i am somewhere else

in some other region

i now doubt 

am i still alive 

or its a lucid illusion

help me !!

give me the ration

please pull the curtain

my mirror shows a new me

or someone else

i fear 

its me with some inclusion

when i can't recognize me

who else can

i know i need a mask 

sooner or later

for identification

but till then i am no one

but a hopeless situation

help me!!

bring me to elation 

please pull the curtain

i know there is light outside

living in dark for so long 

i now fear that shine

i know 

you can give me a reason

help me !!

please pull the curtain