hell yeah

Hell Yeah I will lose..

To be clear I love to lose...

but mark my words,

now and here,

when this war is over

you will be the one

praying

begging

wishing

that you should have lost

I hate being alone.

And I hate it even more when everyone I like is busy somewhere else and they don't have time for me.

And I hate being the last priority of people around me, But somehow I feel that I am last on everyone's list

All I want in my life, at this particular moment, is to have someone whose first priority is me and no one else. All I want is to have someone who loves me and is not ready to share me with anyone.

All I want is to have someone who feels the way I feel. A person who understand me and bring me to peace with myself.

And I want this to happen now.

Sums up my life at present. It gives me a feeling that I am not alone. Somewhere out there, there are people who are feeling the same as I am  and the thought is both confusing and comforting.

It is making me feel  secure as well as violated. Such is life 

my hate list

Let me say this is not impossible but it is very difficult. Actually it is so difficult that I rather not do it and be sad then do it and be happy . I know it sounds a bit strange but this is how I am hard wired and I don't  want to change this.