and now that you are gone ,

my life is as hollow as if you were never here

You will be doing anything

For the ones you love...

Except love them again.

chaos !!!

its been quite a long time since i have written anything that buzzed inside my head.thoughts are such bizarre thing.they lead us to places where we never intended to go .i am just amazed how in the past few days i was manipulated by my own thoughts.

and i don't know why truth make everything else seems like a lie

as meredith grey says in greys anatomy -"at the end of day faith is a funny thing.it turns up when you don't really expect it".so true !!

amazing things happen and they happen all the time .

these days i am in love with the mornings.i love the part of the day when i jog alone .with music in my ear and gazing at the things around me,it simply leave me amazed.

and i was thinking why its so tough to find answer of abstract questions

jane kya chahe man bawraa..playing in the background doesn't help me much.but somehow magically it convey my thoughts right now

"sajan ansuan main kya jor hove

kya jor hove ..

apne jiya pe..

man to mara ye manchala.."

things change and they change all the time but what the hell...life goes on

and i don't know why but i am feeling good after the last line i need to stop now............

Oh when i was in love with you

Oh when i was in love with you...

I was so clean and brave...

And miles around the wonder grew...

How well did i behave.

And now the fancy passes by...

And nothing will remain...

And miles around people will say...

That I am quite myself again...

-A. E. Housman

once again....

i have been here before,

similar feelings ,similar insanity

which i felt before

wasn't able to describe it earlier,

nor did this time i am sure

although i feel its love

but i don't even believe my feelings now

i have been wrong before

an average confession of a loser

so i think its final now ..... i am just an average person ,sadly no different then others.

i am just an average person with average capacities ,average dreams ,average looks and with an average iq. just like every-other average person,i used to think that i am different but now i think its better to realise the truth,and accept my limitations.

may be i never be able to do anything different then others ,there is a high probability that no one even remembers my name ,and i just can't do anything about it because i am a mere pawn in the hands of god and luck.although i am not sure that the god exist.

and i know what the luck has in store for me.i am here to ensure that the winner wins ,the toppers tops.i am just another bloody looser.i am here to clap for the winner . i am here to make noise for them when they are out in the middle winning.

i am a loser. i always was, and i always will be ..and that is my destiny