what I'm looking for

“I have spoken with a ton of angels

I have held the hand of a devil

It was warm in the night

I was cold as a stone

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for…”

- U2

my unknown territory

through out my day

from morning till night

whenever i look outside

i feel 

everything is breathing and bright

so colorful

fill up with life

but somehow this sight upset me

and i don't know why

but i believe

this is not something,to which i belong

i know 

the reason is unknown 

and the thought is absurd

even then this make sense to me

i have everything i need

still something make me worry 

and here i am 

so anxious

wandering here and there 

searching my own territory

these days

some days

I couldnt get up

Couldnt get down

Im bored of everything
Somehow a little black cloud would rain over me
Someone was making me mad
Good turned bad
And Id lose everything to get you back
Just to get you back but...

These days
The worlds alright
The sun shines bright
Im kicking out the bad dreams
These days
I dont think twice
I walk on ice
Im positively somewhere

These days go on
Long after youve gone
These days go on
Long after youve gone
These days go on and on...

Im out of the fire and into the swimming pool
Sometimes Id drown my tears
But the same old fears come back
Someones been making me ill
I bet youre still
A 2,3,4 letter word
Yes, you heard
The pretty little birds fly home, cause...

These days
The sun kicks in
The good guys win
Im illegal in the back seat
These days
Im safe and sound
Not dragged down
You wanna know the reason? 

These days go on
Long after youve gone
These days go on
Long after youve gone
These days go on and on...

Thank you for not being here
I feel better when youre not
Sleeping in my head
Tossing and turning
An messing up the sheets
The love we made was incomplete
Like the shoes on your feet
Same stuff Ive heard before
That philosophy starting to bore me now
Now you wont have to smile and ignore me

These days
The karmas right
The sun shines bright
Im kicking out the bad dreams
These days
I dont think twice
I walk on light
Im positively somewhere

-Bardot

"these days"

teenage blue

one morning,no different from any other morning,you get up,and you find yourself hating the entire world.you hate everything about yourself.your family,friends,college,crush.you jus hate everything that defines you and comprise you.may be that's the reason they call it "teenage blue" and that's what i am suffering from these days

being a student is a tough task n if you are a student in his 3rd year of engineering at the time of great recession it jus become tougher.those painful technical interviews where you come to know that you actually know nothing about your subjects plus the exams that seems to appear every other day,makes it much worse.those endless epics in the form of books jus make you life a little more worse.and off course your "crush" who talks to every tom dick and harry ,leaves you with a jealous look on your face.

for someone like me who has all the above qualities above mentioned and several others that are unmentionable life is defnitely turning to a mess. i need a break from my extra curricular activites that include nothing other then chatting,blogging,and surfing.that may help me to come out of this condition