hell yeah

Hell Yeah I will lose..

To be clear I love to lose...

but mark my words,

now and here,

when this war is over

you will be the one

praying

begging

wishing

that you should have lost

I hate being alone.

And I hate it even more when everyone I like is busy somewhere else and they don't have time for me.

And I hate being the last priority of people around me, But somehow I feel that I am last on everyone's list

All I want in my life, at this particular moment, is to have someone whose first priority is me and no one else. All I want is to have someone who loves me and is not ready to share me with anyone.

All I want is to have someone who feels the way I feel. A person who understand me and bring me to peace with myself.

And I want this to happen now.

Sums up my life at present. It gives me a feeling that I am not alone. Somewhere out there, there are people who are feeling the same as I am  and the thought is both confusing and comforting.

It is making me feel  secure as well as violated. Such is life 

my hate list

Let me say this is not impossible but it is very difficult. Actually it is so difficult that I rather not do it and be sad then do it and be happy . I know it sounds a bit strange but this is how I am hard wired and I don't  want to change this.

well the chances were 50 50

I hoped that my dreams will come true someday.
that hope went down the gutter it seems.
Although I must not complain
My nightmares are happy,alive and kicking.

hmmmmmm

Feelings from B-school till now-

1) I am pretty much useless.

2) Okay useless is not enough.I have to add some more adjectives like worthless, boring,  idiot and I hope you got the drift.

3) I thought I will cherish these two year, but now I have a feeling that these are going to be a nightmare.God Save Me.

4) Satan, I would have offered you my soul but I don't think you will be willing to buy it

5) I don't know why but sometime I feel that death must be beautiful for it help the man to let go of all the unimportant things he thought were important.

6)
Every passing moment reminds me what I am
Every passing moment pierce me
Every day I live, feels like a lie
Every breath I take,leaves me dry